Paul and Marlene have some messed up tactics, basicly u suffer cause I say so in my mom's case. in my dad's "I own you" both "were the same person" to me. repeatedly make it clear talking about it they will hurt me more but their actions combine with those of maple Grove pd and later civil court....
I have no doubt that dispite my dad doing most of the talking and face of abuse my mom likely threatens him with the same flase reports. over time I observed his malice and control tendencies are heightened when they have arguments
what was done first in the name of equality then later empowerment has created a postion of power for women over men. problem is I've yet to see any hard sci evidence indicating women are less likely to be amoral or more moral than men. when you then add the backing of police any strength difference is quickly irrelevant. even with out though, let's get out of binary. say majority of the time men are what 30 percent stronger? does that matter if shoved from behind while descending a staircase? is 30 percent less under the level required for a frying pan to crack skull? and if it's hot? oil?
for some reason repeatedly child to teen my mom would point out Lilly of the valley growing on the edge of the neighbors house facing ours. also which bushes were ricen. pre empowerment or 3rd wave feminism it was still widely known women often kill with poision. the argument for why would she point that out when I was a small child makes sense, repeatedly later does not.
i've known a med student who talking candidly mentioned if she ever wanted to off someone, legionairs in their ac.
from what my parents are doing I have to conclude, use poision or biological means in mn and youu probably get away with murder.
side note
in the mgpd call further down some of my time line issue is, parents said they had my if, would mail it back, like 3 weeks ago.. or that range. then refuse to acknowledge it again and it doesn't show up. thus I didn't get it replaced still don't have it and have to remember reality vs constant onslaught of purposeful lies and deceptions. while frequently hungey and in conditions parents picked and cnp mom admits not good for health. they come up and steal, sit in parking lot. it's all power and control and try to u hinge while frequently stepping past legal while using destruction of all of my things to command my time.
they didn't just take my things. they took parts other peoples employers paid for for projects I already had working to ensure I have no path to decent or any income. that has the side effect of destroying the little social saftenet I had and calling to question my credibility.
then may 22nd officer Hanson is asking why I can't go stay at a friend's.
it's a gotca either way either high levels of quardnation or none.
the officer might not understand social reciprocity or that expecting everyone to be ideal and or u shit on them they are always there for you is both a pipe dream and a part of pathological psych. but very likely there will be court ordered job security for a psychologist and...
land of the free to own your children
they hurt me if I do what they say. they hurt me in ways that make escape dangrous. they hurt in ways that threaten my life and try to poision my mind. ie condition me against behaviors required for adult life.
he says he's going to sue me to make me take it Down..
two things come to mind..
one is bleeding a turnip
the other is you can't sue for definition of character (Alana Alda as hawkeye peirce.. I think frank burns was to whom he said it. but to old and obscure to have a YouTube clip)
you can't be cerel frank!
although I didn't think the police could create threat to life and presistant theft situations or over look and refuse to create a report noting evedence for attempted murder either
my thought is arrests and or a thing along the lines of I abused her rather than she tried to push me over a railing..one potentially pays vawl grants the other doesn't
none of this helps the economy or my chances of not dieing on the street.
my advice for anyone considering having a family in or moving to MN. don't.
Maple Grove police already told me it's not illegal to say you own someone while telling me my parents can open any mail that comes to their house even with my name on it. ignoring they are holding it, opening it and signing my name on enclosed doc and at least one check.
that was when they refused to add the evidence that my mom tried to push me over a railing as well.
watch my bet is they just add shit to my med record and make me go away.
injustice served after 3 years abuse and crimes to prevent escape. not like my mom has access to do so.. oh yeah cnp children's st paul, 40 years experience.. even if there is an audit log it won't say her.
real question in my mind is how they would implement audit logs across orgs. I've noticed docs and nurses or at least nps have a number with their name. I would use that but that doesnt indicate everyone with log /chart/EMR access has that/a number. I'm not sure if normal nurses do or just np/doc.
I'm sure there is an emp number as nobody is doing payroll even medium scale with out software.. but again cross org is the question.
look at me thinking like they won't get rid of me and I might have a future
actually if I get another summonce I think the correct route is stab a fork in each hand then navigate to the 240v outlet sans gfci.
they picked this cell(apt) for anything but health or moving on.. death... it contains lots of ways to generate. mycotoxins a gogo as well
why the forks? human skin is assumed to have 100kohms of resistance when dry and unbroken
guy who liked to meditate (ohmmm) gave us
e=ir
where (e)lectromotive force is volts,
I is amps and auto caps on phone keyboard,
r is ohms or resistance.
my hearts not to concerned about impedance but with ac u might want to look it up 🤪
e/r=i and 240v/100kohm just doesn't do it.
lethal range is 0.1a to 0.2a across the heart. enter (through dry or otherwise broken skin) forks.
maybe if I get a rti and someone rxes codine cough syrup, that plus some lidocaine as a local and ill have the balls to stab a multi meter probe in each arm and report if the r value would be sufficiently low. SCIENCE!
or there's this new thing all the rage called tms. transcranial magnetic stimulation. not sure if I could knock out pain responce with it but... am sure that the spot welder I built for creating lithium ion battery packs slightly modified would make a tms machine. I intended my board design to be a general purpose electric cutting and welding controller. therefore somethings not nesicarly on a pure spot welder are already incorporated. the logic and ui /controls humans touch are powered by an electric ly isolated supply and opto isoter chips pass signals. tems is about mag flux at the coil. swap out the fets I used with high voltage counterparts ( sic or Gan fets.. maybe even the edge of traditional fets) and the maxwell ultra caps for a few high voltage caps. now I can do microprocessor pulsed tems.
funny but tangent, I once opened a mms/pic message to a picture of stitches. friend with PhD implanted their own rfid chip lol. caption "I chipped myself"
I should probably rig a mosfet(back2back) or just relay circuit to a 240v plug.
I wonder if anyone's making a single chip back2back Gan fet or sic fet.. next time pharma wants to play games with cocktail prices maybe a patented solid-state electrocution box sold for slightly less.. file for it, demonstrate it leave it to someone entrusted to give proceeds to non gendered end abuse fund seems like a legacy. forks sold seperately!
back on track:
the challange I forsee is in the US 240v in residential settings is split phase and both are earth referenced.
in other words u need both wires. a 240v outlet is hot hot ground. each hot is 120v and one high while other is also high but 120v rms down from 0 on the graph. potential diff ends up being 240vrms if u grab hot and hot or want to run an ac with less copper.
hot 2 hot helps get u the across the heart as a path. esp if one stands on styrophome or rubber mat.
incredibly crude diagram with relays. usually id say this is not a complete tutorial and Saftey requires some of your own homework... but.. uh.. lol u tell me how to safely electrocute oneself. or ask the guy at excels Monticello plant.. or rather next of kin. probably leave it crude for that reason. phone screen wasn't entirely playing ball for this either.
switches on each of the 120 legs allowing one to connect then close/complete with one switch would still be ideal because grabbing the first if already live...
little tingle.
and muscles are known to go a bit funky adding power.. as Obama said:
isn't that the point?
watts the point? 24 to 48 really.. or it could be said ventricular fibrillation is the point
that's watts up. well that and pie.. everyone loves p=ie
thanks Obama!
side note : police tazers do quite a bit of trickery to limit the possibility of lethal across the heart. including frequency of pulse to utilize skin effect (electrical term not Anatomy) and avoid interfering with rhythm. the voltage involved and the nature of barbs doing what I prepose with forkes would leave me on edge on the receiving end. I've seen it happen as well, doesn't look like good fun. I can still hear the whirr and thud in my mind.
actually minus the topic being suicide if this was coming from the black lens; that's probably a leVar topic.
story of America, kunta kinte lives long enough to be cheif engineer on a ftl starship and educates children on the reading rainbow for a bit Inbetween. 😋
notably not present in looting a target.
I wanna say he was present on shining time station as well but... old memories. that conductor though
but personally I prefer the person lens and watching it as a kid I was aware he didn't look like me but that really didn't matter, he was smart and talking about cool things. kids don't have prejiduce, we teach it to them. descending soap box...
other news :
ever hear the story about the Silvia plath that didn't inhale? wait that might have been Clinton.
dark humor is like food when Paul and Marlene claim to own you (not everyone gets it)
now a word from our sponsors:
this human ownership made possible by:
the city of maple Grove MN, and storm trooper police within also in part by 4th district Court of hennepin Clounty
maybe benificiary would be a more accurate term (see violance against woman law fedral grants and or policing for profit. yarrr Matti! )
Intelegent, Verbal Expression of anger and Physical Restraint
gee maybe with jail closed I should just go steal back what's mine. cept my dad has at least one gun that i know of and better aim than the republic. see its not all blasphemy.. er maybe I meant slander. but look up the meaning of the name John and you tell me what he considers it.
point is not that I think it's a good idea or intend to. it's that I'm smart enough to consider or have it occurs that unrest may have given a window to take back what's mine but also to foresee issues and understand its chaotic enough down there.
that said, I haven't assaulted anyone both of the ofp accusers cannot truthfully say the same to me. doing the right thing appears to have me on track to 3 years of emotional incest isolation terror and then death.
A Ron white bit also comes to mind : officers unloaded point blank... no one was wounded. he was wearing body armor... I CAN SEE HIS HEAD SHOOT Him IN THE FUCKING HEAD, let pute do it!
with what's above said, this outcome or even mgpd calling a huddle and telling me to take a knee might be more humane.
funny how they run to court says my words make him feel threatened while he's telling me he owns me
now I have no second amendment rights. also funny how stupid they assume the patient on medical holds.
do I have access to firearms?
fucking pleb.
you wanna see fire arms?
hand me those forks and stand back.
heat watts= i²*r (incase u missed the joke) just put in a jewl cd and crank it (joule heating, or ohmetic)
good lord the samoli population must have smelt the... they are surging at the door and none of them have masks on.
bear arms is kinda risky with crispr but nanobots might someday make an interesting challange.
Challange to law makers and local pds
how about we fix policies to actually protect people rather than secure demand for police, court, mental wards cornorers and morticians? or quite possibly police just in search of fed grants
cause suicide is painless, it brings on many changes.. but I can take on living if I please
probably not for very long with malnurishment and homelessness created by maple groves refusal to uphold justice or do anything about repeated theft and illegal lock out on a lease.
hard to vote with out id as well.
vote or die..
well last time I joked I was write in voting for putin look how that turned out. infact I didn't vote and now look what path I'm on.
if the two officers that told me it's not illegal to say you own someone could please describe what is the criteria to define owning someone if appreciate it. as far as I can see not much could possibly be unticked. same goes for human trafficing
Mockery? I would say the State has contempt for citizen life.
if you want to argue I'm not taking this seriously: start with defining how to get an income when someone can steal your ID
or eat for that matter, does snap not require photo ID?
where is the rational adults belief it's overcomable when another party can repeatedly commit malicious acts that endanger life and violate law with seeming impunity?
50 years ago it was long established by med sci that lack of water food shelter kills, in climits further south that order is valid. mn winter shelter water food is often the order. at - 30f walking a mile outside might be the end of you.
but today we know even more about diet and longevity. about the biggest influence one can control in quality of life, length of life and what ends it is what you eat.
yeah there's an issue with widly admiting it and I'm kinda on that line at the moment. that said, to permit theft that changes my ability to do so. this is a really sick topic but it's not of my creation. economic means equate to length of life if used to make correct diatary choices. links on the right hand side. I don't spoute hypothetical well maybe I would. it took me years to get in the habits and aquire the tools. I did it. just for it to be taken.
diet also influences emotional regulation, cognition in general and attention.
after a year and a half of police enforcing a 0 notice lock out, refusing to allow attempted murder on a report (Marlene trying to shove me over the railing). Paul assaulted me another time and Marlene slammed a car door on my leg summer 2019. mgpd officer "that's not assult that's not battery what are u doing here John"
a side effect of that is also, how am I suposed to maintain evidence or proof of ownership of anything in this situation?
several times in front of maple Grove pd it's been agreed my bike is my bike and it will be returned to me. never happens. look it up yourself but as far as something like type 2 diabities, food cravings, heart disease, ability to move a to b with out has cost, something I enjoy and known to reduce stress and anxiety?
nope but if we can paint him violent or Paul and Marlene feel threaned..
leave for a hotel for 2 weeks max Aug 2018. ever since everything mine has been held. State that it's being destroyed
Maple Grove officers have 0 concern for this or why for a year and a half before both parents filed ofps I was made to drive away from all the things I own in a car I don't.
how it went was usually show up and if invited there is no answer on phone. sit in car in driveway or city street and 10 to 15min later 1 to 3 squads rolls up
at a few points I was told I can't file theft I gavef them my things moving out.. then more recently parents come to st cloud and sswipe garage door opener from car, use it to take things from my garage. scpd officer "how do we know they didn't pay for them"
yeah this seems fair. ie between Grove pds actions and hen 4th.. they can try to kill me, steal any and everything from me, come near me I can't go near them or expect anything more than death on the street
vonderful
Only way I see this not hurting people by intent
if law makers assumed the police make no mistakes. the reality is far from that and ifboth incentive to gain by different grants and civil forfiture on crimes plus situations where they may become liable for previous actions. ofp is kinda a nice catchall though. no statue of limits increasingly wide application criteria. if one party is terrorizing another or say something like the California turpins went down... say the police brought the kids back a few times. I told mgpd parents literlay claim to own me. "it's not illegal to say you own someone"
yarr Mattie, sprinkle some drugs on the body so no one asks questions.. aight?!
pirates, remember? for profit policing. Google violence against women federal grants for a taste. mn claims things like ofp orders are now non gendered. id like to see the stats and the arrest stats I have a feeling gedral funds flow in some cases.
trying to take the advice of Mt python to Mrs brown right now but things seem rather hopeless. still a good song. not out of lack of respect but rather pd and annominity, thanks Mark.
Cosmos cat. named after my fascination with the heavens... not the publication. obviously before I understood what light pollution robs us of.
extra disturbing. I bought that dehumidifier. I also theorized mold as early as 2014. I had intended to live there one month in that year. it tuned into about 6 as my mom insisted i was too crazy to leave.
end of Nov 2018 3mo into lock out Bonnie rabbit dies in their care.
INCESENT MIND AND LIFE FUCK
Maple Grove pd repeatedly claims I'm living the life. or if my parents tell them they gave me money.. "your parents give u enough money" they don't care or seem to want details though
with out details on expenses what the fuck is enough?
numbers can sound big, here's 1400 I expect that bridge over the bearing straight by tomorrow.
but how feasible is that? how just is it while standing between me and tools both parents are recorded admiting I've earned with in the past?
or my kitchen things. I'm not a kid I'm now 32 and fast food suoersize me diet is not helping chances of type 2 diabities heart disease etc
nor all this aspergilis and mycotoxins from black mold
here, officer Hanson, 10k but I get all your possessions and I expect fukashim a diatchi uncontaminated in 3 days. hwzmad suit cbn cards? ha u bring those from.. never mind I'm taking your possessions. tough luck.
clearly the above is an illustration not intent
but if that sounds like a deal to anyone.. I've got a bridge in Brooklyn for sale.
I think I'm beginning to understand what the guy who took the dash 8 for a joyride was going through.
don't forget the bleed air switch or u might have to look like a noob and tell atc u are light headed
not that the computer world solves all problems but damn security through obscurity.. basic bad.
like the start procedure for a large aircraft is assumed esoteric enough it doesn't require a key or any other means that secures it from unauthorized start.
most inventions of the modern world have been recorded or attributed to one person or team. only years or decades later does it become clear that half way around the world someone else had it at nearly the same time.
I don't concern myself with smartest in the room or that sort of ranking for a few reasons but the main is that in 8bn its unlikely u are ever the top and preoccupied with rank u could have learned or contributed something with that time.
I would have had a degree by now had likely mild dislexia and math dislexia been caught. I passed my ham radio exam at like 13 years old. kc0jsf. 3rd or 4th try. what changed was I figured out blank note cards above and below the line I was trying to read for detail enable me to not have the line bouncing all over obstructing the desired goal. eventually I didn't need them any more.
dinner the night I passed Marlene : "what now u expect us to buy u an expensive radio?"
among the things still held, 2 radios I had to save for. a power supply donated from another ham. a 600 to 1200 dollar radio given by the lonski family on my great uncle Johns passing. W0BSI.
somewhere between 22 and 24 I came across math dislexia as a concept found it reading about other psychology stuff one night. realized 1st grade playing poggs at recess was intruoted to meet with a Para and practice reading clocks and tiring shoes.
the hallmarks in young children.
all my things and those radios held or stored in conditions likely to destroy. what's the value on criminal distruction in MN? what does FCC part 97 say about ham radio with out a liscense? mn scanner law?
these are question I know the answer to but am asking to make a point. selective enforcement with age discrimination.
which in not sure mn law covers. there's a nice website to discuss who's protected from what. notably absent is any nod to what happens if discrimination by police leaves u on the street with out id.
it apears one could kill with poision in MN. or a mother pushing a son over a railing.. well failing to went down as me added to violence against woman stats and police refusing to hear evidence otherwise. can't be attempted murder if the police won't allow it reported.
parents fraudulently reported I got agressive and shoved her across the room. I did no such thing and police in maple Grove upon hearing I have recorded calls that call that into question and actual admission of falsifying reports as punishment.. I told them I'm looking for unreliable witness on record.
"if we put that on record we might be liable"
here's what I forsee: I make any leaway twoards justice and da decides.. doesn't matter parents declined pressing charges, surprise!
one hand with fingers leet over is how many times I've been to a court in 32 years. I had blaw at scsu but that sums up my legal experience. I'm no shut in though. I've been to two hands worth of countries, almost every state and at 18 spent 45 days alone backpacking Europe. I paid for that and had money left for start of ndsu in the fall. at 20 I jumped out of a perfectly good airplane with out being strapped to anyone. first time. 5hr ground course beforehand. two people jump holding on to handles so u don't tumble if u don't find the stable belly to earth postion lol. spoiler for a large portion: is it there, is it square. aka how to determine if u might be better off with the reserve canopy. once u pull the rip cord they let go. suposed to have an ear piece so person on ground can tell u when to flare. my radio receiver wasn't working. I landed on my feet.
I thought I managed to get the damn pvc segment and rip cord into suit but I think it was donated to a farmers field somewhere in Baldwin. my bad 🤣
I'm more worried now than I was through any of that.
I also guess someone figured the rule of law concept is irrelevant if pr is covered correctly.
I'm slowly learning the world is run by npd aspd and one way or another I'll probably die on the street.
but adjunct to security by obscurity would seem to be the modern legal system and state liability.. secured via court will shut him up, prision will shut him up or enforcement bias will leave him to die of the elements but slap domestic violence titles on and or sprinkle drugs and who would question it?
never mind the one accusation in 32 years history or anything else. women don't lie and parents wouldn't do that mmmk, incentive has never created less than moral decisions by gov powers either mmmk
but please.. accept that profiling ing or history has nothing to do with likely hood and people don't need id to eat or seek employment. people cabt own anything if their oarwnrs say so and police back it. plese please don't question why 3 Peter agencies have spent so many tax dollars understanding criminal psych and likely hoods. if court says hearsay is enough...
I'm surprised they let him drive school bus though. dieasle fuel and a sack of furtilizer is a volitile combination.
ask Timothy.
hs band trip to San Antonio in 05 was via bus. if u recall 2005 the iPhone was about to drop, I had a treo650. back around 01 I was already doing what the iPhone could.. maybe 02 with a Sony Ericson t68i and Compaq pocket pc via Bluetooth dun profile. reading that Ericson was developing Bluetooth I was made to save every pennie and had to convince my mom.. she had a woman's group and investment club. through their broker I got 100shares of Ericson telco. but that's tangent. on the way back from TX in 05 our band trip was able to stop and see a bunch of chairs. really earry at night. surreal, esp the little ones from the daycare center. one of the adults having seen I was online on the bus (phone to laptop and external battery pack because I thought ahead) asked if I could map quest a detour.
odd return from the 90s...I just heard ford is bringing the Branco back. my dad has eextreamly friendly relations with the police as well.. the irony of Branco becoming the escape occurred later but.. halarious none the less. to put that memory in perspective Mrs rythers 2nd grade class had a friend teaching Spanish intermittently between that and the news I though: Blanco Branco was clever.
finishing where I started..
his own words : why are u telling everyone how I am, and u are telling everyone. everyone who knows me already knows how I am..
the type that keeps a supply of small gloves?
for the last 2 years I've got intermittent reports form people I know they were contacted and told in sick in the head, obsessed with mold and or on drugs.
at one point I did contact his former employer. what I was looking for was someone he trusted to ask him if he's thought this through or to possibly ask "hey maybe step back and look again?" I didn't find that there. probably telling though
I was told "good luck"
if from a psych standpoint u want to use this to label me aspd, npd or bpd. esp the first two, I'd request u read it again with attention to the known deficits in gray matter vs what's written. perhaps attention to how my animal friends are shown interacting or for instant Clyde asleep on a pet friendly hotel bed. the psychology of a pray animal doesn't mix with strange hotel room and only likes me cause I feed him.
it wasn't an attempt to display superiority, just to indicate I don't suffer the above. maybe that's the problem.
this has been so far beyond inhumane. I still haven't stopped the damage to my things. a year with Clyde in freezer, 30days hungry in 2019. 20 days to vaycate March 2020 forced leave.. ofps summinence. not a month went by the apt company wasn't sliding a letter under door or leaving it outside. mold clean up in already moldy garage bothered them despite discussing it before signing lease. I signed under duress. from parents sign this lease right now or be homeless with out anything. roughly 6mo and 14 hotel rooms 5 hotels after lock changed on their house. Clyde still alive.
so despite covid the apt keeps sending notice to vaycate until last week. meanwhile mgpd refuse to budge and serve the ofp sterns wouldn't.
I'm frozen in fear. more so terror conditioned I act responsibly they act to set me back. often outside the law
contrary to what they say I was frequently employed multiple jobs at same time since age 16
this summed up could be
2001 carpet and pad laid in basment. parents playing general contractor finishing it. hired crew from my dad's work for drywall and other trades people to do things like gas fireplace ceiling framing etc. carpet pad was vapor barrier laid over sealed cement slab. mold guy determined this was a root cause in 2018. water had trapped between the 2.
we also got Cosmos in 2001.
2004 I get off work 3 hrs early and call 911 noticing my dad teyibf to change tv channel with cordless phone when I arrived home.
2006 ndsu
2013 stlf volenteer trip .in NYC we clenbed a fuzzy fuzzy sand stricken home. bumping my respirator was one hell of a smell
2014 while moving to st cloud I think their basment made me sick. turns into 6mo cause in too crazy to leave. some things smelled that ggave me a hint... well see 2013
2017 I had forgotten all about what happened and Cosmos was sick. passanger side of car had a jug of water break. wet car and sleeping on basment floor some nights haven driven down to see Cosmos.
... Jan 2018 I move back in and my nkn says shes my landlord. no less than 6300 in skilled labor preformed in the past for pay was preformed in the 8mo to 0 notice lock out in Aug. unskilled labor also included starting the remediation in their basement
Nov 2018 a pro was payed to do tgis
same wall.. count the studs (16in on center) I'd say about 50ft. the lower pic is missing 10ft on the right side before divider wall and it's all the same wall. back of their house. I should know. I grew up there. I was such a bad minor, I helped paint the floor. not that I had say in the product or awareness of what a vapor barrier is but..
my dad wouldn't say why but the deck on the other side and ground level came off the house.
edge of deck was 3ft gap to retaining wall. I'm guessing the grating under the deck was no good. the retaining wall would have made it eextreamly difficult to rake dirt or rock up correctly and correct the issue.
all useless stuff to know now. the odds that at this point I live long enough to recover my credit and don't lose my health.. the odds I ever own a home... low
Dec 2018 "I need cobtrol because I want control"
in learning about aspd, bpd and npd I was eventually able to identify that I have indeed mimicked some of these behaviors in the past. I also know it was learned. it's still my fault and I am sorry to those who caught that. it's not a part of me though I still feel and deeply. I know I also have a decent level of emotional intelegence. I'd theorize being an only between two highly functional and intelegent cluster bs helped this even when I didn't realize it for what it was. the little bit of rational intellect I posses helped me not fall into becoming it.
records would also show after my dad's anurism I saught help. whay they wouldn't show is how much crap both parents gave me including "why do u think we messed u up so Bad"
why won't u stop trying to do just that?
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