The concept of optimization is kind of key to how this is hurting.
Although so is the concept of gas lighting so maybe The answer is f*** you do what I told you But if you can't honestly express it that way one how powerful are you? You seem like a f****** coward to me. Two go f*** yourself. Three come at me you f****** wuss. And especially if you're involved it's absolutely insane how pathetic you must be having ensured either via committing crime and malicious acts or turning blind eyes to repedative malicious apps that are also crime.. or to sum it up those charged to protect have ensured I'm malnourished robbed blind and then robbed again. And then begin to play well no that doesn't matter how could it I don't see that. In other words gaslighting games where you faine ignorance. Although I can't speak for any given external to myself individual so it could be actual ignorance as well but I want to give the benefit of the doubt there. That said how strong are you if you want to take a swing at someone you make sure is starved on and off or malnourished for 3 years but instead you make sure they just live in terror d or die that way?
Pardon the animosity just a little bit of malnutrition, toxic and allergenic mold as a bio weapon and terror clouding my judgment.
Being able to do any task necessary for life and being able to do them efficiently to enable other tasks are not necessarily one in the same. Nor is it okay to externally judge at any given moment especially when your previous momentary snapshot decisions from a position of power have parted someone with items that might be necessary to optimize.
But from a personal perspective it's fuckimg disgusting and terrifying
To face forced labor and suffering while those commiting malicious and criminal acts against you bark commands having stolen everything yours decided where you live and then alternate between telling you you're incompetent never have been competent and forcing by a threat additional tasks when they've taken everything you need to optimize basic or advanced tasks necessary to life and or achievement or even basic income.
And that's without the poison. Although it's pretty much its own form it's not in the literal sense.
What I'm finding is this detachment from even being able to identify why I feel some basic feeling oh yeah because I didn't eat why didn't I eat because well maybe I didn't have the money maybe it was spent on well I've even f****** listed about a year worth of Amazon purchases so judges for yourself..
Then sometimes I have the money but I I don't want to eat in the car and they make sure I don't have a f****** place to sit.
I've made center islands desks tables as well as bought them but the people telling me they own me have police turning blind eye after blind eye anytime they steal anything so the real problem here becomes where is a safe path? Healthy brains attemp t to record what caused pain or tramua so they can avoid it. A neurologically and biologically healthy child who touches a hot pan you won't see them do it again.
Within this example ensuring that laws can be violated that place a person in a condition of pain and/or risk with no apparent path to escape is a kin to well I touched the child's hand to the burner and I didn't like that it got mad at me for it. So then I set that filthy little brat in a room on fire and made sure there was no exit and if you're Paul or Marlene or even some members of the Maple Grove police force you then ask why are you hurting yourself?